First of all let me thank you for visiting my website and my very first blog. If you are the grammar police I might drive you a little crazy with my grammar and punctuation . I always had difficulties in school. I would study and know the answers the night before, but when you put that test in front of me the next day…nothing. That is so hard on a kid wondering why the rest of the room was so smart, and why you couldn’t be the same. No way would I tell anyone about my problems, because I didn’t want to ride the short bus to school that everyone made fun of. I just became the class clown and acted as if I didn’t care instead of being my true self who felt like the room could swallow me whole. Going into my teenager years it got worse. It was as if I could no longer make excuses as to why I did so bad in school. In 11th grade I woke to the worst possible pain you could imagine during my “lady time” of the month. I went to the doctor and found out I had Endometriosis. Notice how the first part of that says End o me. If felt like the end o me it was such excruciating pain. Endometriosis is the worst cramps and menstrual cycle once can have. It is where the tissue that normally lines the uterus grows outside the uterus and that equals PAIN! Once I had the surgery I was out of school for a month and even further behind. I had enough. I was in my head and felt I could never catch up to the other students so I dropped out of school. I did get my GED the same year the rest of my class graduated. This really messed me up in thinking I was a failure. Not smart enough, not good enough. This is what took me 20 plus years to realize. We are what we say we are. I always felt stupid, so I was stupid. If I said I was smart, I would be smart. We have to be careful what we tell ourselves that seeps into our mind. I beat myself up for years, because I was a little different than others. I was ADD and had learning disabilities. I learn different from others, but that doesn’t make me stupid. We need to embrace who God made us. I may not learn the fastest, but I am super creative and a great story teller. Don’t let others and especially yourself keep you from your dreams, because you are different. Some of the greats didn’t do good in school. Let me name a few Simon Cowell, yes the guy who is worth millions and started American Idol dropped out at age 16! Another one that will shock you is Richard Branson dropped out of high school at age 16. Both of these men built empires because they had the mindset to do it. I tell you this to tell you to keep going. Don’t let your mid tell you that you can’t do something. God can take someone like me a drop out and make her dynamic helping and inspiring people around the world.
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