By the Grace of God
I know. As soon as people see that they feel so many different emotions. The thing is I never thought I would ever speak those words to one person much less the world. My own mother who I am very close to didn’t know. My husband who has been my best friend for over 11 years didn’t know. Why? Why didn’t I tell them? The same reason a lot of us stay silent with what happened to us. Fear…Fear for being judged, fear of shame, fear of guilt, fear of life itself. So, I am sure you are wondering why after 23 years I broke my silence? God told me too. It is as simple as that. God woke me up at 3 times at 3 A.M. each time telling me it is time to tell your story. I tried to ignore him, but that is just silly to try and ignore God. I finally gave in and broke my story in a book. The Holy Spirit flowed through me as I wrote what had happened to me. I had to go back to a very dark part of my life to write this book, but I knew that is what God was calling me to do. I have struggled with education since a small child so the idea of writing a book seemed impossible, but all things are possible with God. I ended up writing 3 books in two weeks. The first book, B.O.S.S. released and quickly became a best-selling book. The second book has been ready to release but I am praying for the right publisher since I got burned so bad on my first book. Be careful who you trust. The name of the second book is also B.O.S.S. this book is Break Out Silent Soldier and tells of me being on the run after escaping Human Trafficking. Since the release of my book I have spoken my truth on stages and, I am now a certified life coach. I have had stage fright my whole life, but reaching people are more important than my stage fright so I push past it. I now know the reason I went through so much pain is because God had a plan and a purpose for my life!
Healing
Many people ask me how is it that I am such a happy person after what I went through? It was not always this way. I might have escaped physically from Human Trafficking, but I didn’t escape mentally. I lived with so much fear, anxiety, anger and hate. I hated life and tried every way possible to numb the way I felt. I turned to alcohol and could drink a grown man under the table. I turned to drugs that would numb me for a short time, but then the demons were back. I turned to men mostly abusive because I didn’t believe I deserved anything better. My world was dark. I tried to take my life more than once and failed at each attempt. I hated my life until I met my husband. When I met him, my life was spiraling out of control. I had been abused, used, hurt, and lost all my trust. My husband slowly showed me more and more love each day. I wasn’t used to this and wondered what he wanted? I knew there was only one reason a man is nice to you. I was mean. I had become the Pitbull who will bite you to protect myself. After a few weeks of him showing me love I began to soften some, but still held this dark secret he knew nothing about. We ended up getting married and it was the best day of my life. As we were so happy together, I still battled the demons in my mind. It had been two years and I was about to lose my marriage. I had a friend tell me you must give it to Jesus. The pain, the unforgiveness, the anger you must give it all to Jesus. I had known about Jesus my whole life. I was in church every time the doors opened. The key to healing is forgiveness. It is giving all your hurts, pains, and anger to Jesus. That was hard for me to do, to forgive the Human Traffickers for what they did to me. I knew I had too. I fought it for what seemed like hours, but once I said I forgive them it felt like a ton of weight was lifted off my shoulders. I also forgave every man who had used me, abused me, or hurt me physically and mentally. I gave it all to Jesus, and my friends that is when I felt the healing. I no longer drank to numb myself and where there was anger was replaced with joy. I have no idea what you’re going through or what you have been through, but I can promise you when you surrender all and give it to Jesus, he can take it all away. The demons are done!!! What a freeing feeling that is!
3 Reasons Why You Need Jesus
Because You Have A Past
I want you to know Jesus loves you. He desires to have a relationship with you and give you a life of joy and purpose. We all have a past. You can’t go back, but he can. The Bible says, “Jesus Christ is the same yesterday, today, and forever” (Hebrews 13:8) He can walk into those places of sin and failure, wipe the slate clean, and give you a new beginning.
Because You Have A Friend
Jesus knows the worst about you, yet He believes the best. Why? Because He sees you not as you are, but as you will be when He gets through with you. What a friend!
Because He Holds the Future
Who else are you going to trust? In His Hands you are safe and secure – today, tomorrow, and for all eternity. His word says, “For I know the plans I have for you…plans for good and not evil, to give you a future and a hope. In those days when you pray, I will listen” (Jeremiah 29;11-12)
If you’d like to begin a personal relationship with Jesus today, please pray this prayer:
Lord Jesus, I invite You into my life. I believe you died for me and that your blood pays for my sins and provides me with the gift of eternal life. By Faith I receive that gift, and I acknowledge You as my Lord and Savior. Amen.
If you prayed that prayer, we believe you are born again, and your life will never be the same. Find a Bible based church and enjoy the freedom of being set free!
Why I love Bling?
I am pretty sure after reading everything above you now understand my love of Bling! I went from being in a dark place to a place of light and love! I am drawn to things that sparkle and that is what my website is all about. In time as I make money, I am determined to attach a nonprofit that helps rescue and shelter Human Trafficking victims. My prayer is to one day have my own foundation and be able to build healing shelters for victims of Human Trafficking. To let these victims, know that if Jesus can heal me, He can heal you too. That you too can come out of the darkness and sparkle bright like the diamond God made you.
